5/15/19

Tonight was one of those nights where I was not in control of my emotions.  I'm not sure what my problem was, but my fuse was incredibly short.  I was trying to book flights and a hotel for our trip to Mesa, put the boys to bed and help Porter take a bath.  Mason hadn't napped and Jonas took a massive nap yesterday, but didn't sleep as long last night, so I really wanted them to go to bed a little earlier.  My frustration rises when that doesn't happen.  Then I was working with David on checking out hotels (he was at work), in the meantime Mason is bringing cereal boxes downstairs and Jonas and him made a mess with cereal.  Sometimes I know I need to stop, focus on what matters and readjust my thinking, but instead I just let the natural man take over.  I can feel the frustration inside of me bubbling out.  Someday I will master it.  Someday I will clearly shift and stay calm.