All the boys ended up in my room last night. David was on call. Mason and Jonas started out there and around 4:30am Porter showed up. Then Porter coughed for the next hour until I finally said him and I should get up. We were all up by 6:30am. There is something reassuring about having them all cuddled in my room, especially when David is working.
This morning I got to spend time reading with Porter. He's currently reading, "Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows." So far he said this one has been boring because it's all been about getting ready for a wedding. But when I started reading with him it started to get exciting again. He loves the action and the drama. I never read this series on my own, so it's been fun to read at least parts of it with him. Usually for Mommy/Porter time we end up reading. I love that he still lets me read to him. I don't know how much longer that will last.
Today was a beautiful day, so Mason and Jonas and I decided to go for a walk. These boys are so fun. They both got out their bikes and helmets and we headed off. Then we ran into a neighbor, so they ended up riding up and down our street. Our street is pretty steep and they came pummeling down the street. Kind of gives me a heart attack, but I loved watching how much fun they had. Watching my boys play and have so much fun is one of my favorite things. It was close to Porter's lunch time, so we decided to walk over to the school and say hello. Porter gave the boys hugs and kisses and told them he loved them. These are the moments when you'd think they love each other and always get along. On our walk home, Jonas stopped to try and get butterflies to land on his arm. It didn't happen, but when we were playing outside later today he was able to catch a ladybug and have it crawl on him. He is so tender with animals and it ALMOST makes me want to get him a pet that he can really play with. I'll have to think about it and see if there is a pet that would really work for him.
My goal is to focus more on the positive, sweet interactions with my boys, so I can remember how lucky I am and how much joy they bring me.
Thursday, May 2, 2019
Wednesday, May 1, 2019
Getting rid of stuff/organizing and Porterisms (5/1/19)
Jonas and Mason help me load up to take things to DI. They are both great helpers and loved getting to load stuff onto the DI truck. Mason is recovering from being sick, So he snuggled up next to me and took a nap. Then Jonas came up to me later in the afternoon and said he just wanted some alone time and he laid it down with a blanket in the living room and took a nap also. I’m assuming he must be getting a little sick too.
When Porter came home Mason and him joined me outside organizing the loft above the garage. I’ve been meaning to do this but was waiting to see what we were going to do with the space. I realized I better do it sooner than later because I won’t be able to bend over much longer and it’s only going to get hotter up there.
It feels good to get rid of stuff and to start organizing things. We still have a long ways to go.
Porter had soccer pictures tonight and we had a little bit of a conflict trying to get him into a soccer uniform. He said he was not wearing cleats and he doesn’t like his soccer shorts. So, the compromise was that he wore jeans with his soccer shirt over his sweatshirt and his vans shoes. I give up on fighting him over things like this. Then on the way to pictures he was saying how he did not like how they made him pose. He complained that they made him put his hands on his hips and his foot on the ball. So when it was time for his individual shot and that is exactly how they post him I could not help but laugh out loud. He was pretty upset in the photo.
Then all the boys and I got to play on the playground and it is fun to watch them explore and Mason and Jonas get more brave at climbing higher on things. Mason would say. “Do you see me Mom?”
If it wasn’t so cold I would’ve stayed longer.
When Porter came home Mason and him joined me outside organizing the loft above the garage. I’ve been meaning to do this but was waiting to see what we were going to do with the space. I realized I better do it sooner than later because I won’t be able to bend over much longer and it’s only going to get hotter up there.
It feels good to get rid of stuff and to start organizing things. We still have a long ways to go.
Porter had soccer pictures tonight and we had a little bit of a conflict trying to get him into a soccer uniform. He said he was not wearing cleats and he doesn’t like his soccer shorts. So, the compromise was that he wore jeans with his soccer shirt over his sweatshirt and his vans shoes. I give up on fighting him over things like this. Then on the way to pictures he was saying how he did not like how they made him pose. He complained that they made him put his hands on his hips and his foot on the ball. So when it was time for his individual shot and that is exactly how they post him I could not help but laugh out loud. He was pretty upset in the photo.
Then all the boys and I got to play on the playground and it is fun to watch them explore and Mason and Jonas get more brave at climbing higher on things. Mason would say. “Do you see me Mom?”
If it wasn’t so cold I would’ve stayed longer.
Tuesday, April 30, 2019
The first kick (4/1/19)
This is not an April Fools’ Day joke. I have actually felt the baby kick a couple of times today. It’s always reassuring when you start feeling something.
For April Fools’ Day I played a few tricks on the kids. I gave them eggs for breakfast which was actually vanilla yogurt with half a peach in it. Then I made them a pan of brown E’s (brownies). Jonas had to then play that trick on David when he got home from work. It’s fun to see them start enjoying stuff.
We learned about the priesthood keys during family home evening. The boys were engaged and listened and seemed to want to learn. That’s always a win!
For April Fools’ Day I played a few tricks on the kids. I gave them eggs for breakfast which was actually vanilla yogurt with half a peach in it. Then I made them a pan of brown E’s (brownies). Jonas had to then play that trick on David when he got home from work. It’s fun to see them start enjoying stuff.
We learned about the priesthood keys during family home evening. The boys were engaged and listened and seemed to want to learn. That’s always a win!
Finding Joy in Motherhood (4/30/19)
There are times that are extremely hard as a mother. And then there are moments or even extended periods of time that are rewarding and downright pleasant. I think these times often get overshadowed by the harder moments. Tonight during dinner, Mason was sleeping (he's sick) and Jonas had already left the table. David, Porter and I remained for about 20-30 minutes talking just the three of us. It was so enjoyable and actually pretty hilarious. Porter was telling us about school and he is incredibly expressive as he talks about people and tells stories. It is hard not to smile and laugh as we listened to the dramatic experiences of a 6 year old. He told us he has a girl in his class and her last names sounds like "cheeto". So, he would call her "cheeto" and she told him that was incorrect. Then he said, her name is spelled "Shito". David and I both agreed that "cheeto" was much better alternative.
Last Friday (4/26/19) Porter didn't have school, so we wanted to go do something fun. We went to Jump Around Utah. We played hard and Porter and I raced up the big slide. I teased him that even as a pregnant lady I could beat him. The only difference is that I can give my all for one attempt and he could keep going. Then I got to take turns going down another slide with Mason and Jonas. Laughing and relaxing with my boys is so worth it. I've realized I do so much better with this when I am not home thinking of the millions of things I need/want to do.
In the afternoon we went to Gayle's for swimming, dinner and a movie. The Mitchell's joined us for swimming. It was a great day being together and enjoying each other.
Saturday (4/27/19) was another great day. Porter had two parties and Jonas, Mason and I also joined him for the last one (Ollie's). The weather was great and the boys loved playing outside.
We talked about the Book of Mormon and David asked the boys why the Book of Mormon was important. Jonas said, "Because it teaches us about Jesus." Jonas is so understanding and has a simple, pure faith.
Last Friday (4/26/19) Porter didn't have school, so we wanted to go do something fun. We went to Jump Around Utah. We played hard and Porter and I raced up the big slide. I teased him that even as a pregnant lady I could beat him. The only difference is that I can give my all for one attempt and he could keep going. Then I got to take turns going down another slide with Mason and Jonas. Laughing and relaxing with my boys is so worth it. I've realized I do so much better with this when I am not home thinking of the millions of things I need/want to do.
In the afternoon we went to Gayle's for swimming, dinner and a movie. The Mitchell's joined us for swimming. It was a great day being together and enjoying each other.
Saturday (4/27/19) was another great day. Porter had two parties and Jonas, Mason and I also joined him for the last one (Ollie's). The weather was great and the boys loved playing outside.
We talked about the Book of Mormon and David asked the boys why the Book of Mormon was important. Jonas said, "Because it teaches us about Jesus." Jonas is so understanding and has a simple, pure faith.
Sunday, March 10, 2019
Why is it so hard? (3/10/19)
Over and over again I say I’m going to be more consistent with journaling. But the cyst consistency just doesn’t come. I know this is an important thing to do, so I will keep trying. Lately in the moments that I have to myself running or working at the house I’ve been listening to various podcasts or talks. My mind and my spirit are continually enlightened as I seek for good things to fill my mind or better myself. The struggle with Porter continues. I love him dearly. But I feel battles constantly between us except those times when he has my undivided attention. He is growing up fast and I know the precious time that I can influence him the most is diminishing. I have started this program positive parenting solutions to figure out what I can do and how I can change so that I can bridge the gap and help him to feel significant and loved and give him the power that he so desires in appropriate ways and boundaries. He likes to do his own thing and be independent, yet he is still a little boy that needs love and approval. I often wonder how I am screwing him up in my moments of frustration and outburst. At times I have said hurtful things and I don’t want him to ever think that I don’t adore him. I have found how weak the natural man is and I have let him overtake my spiritual strength. Just like journaling I renew frequently to do better as a mother to these precious boys. I know that they have been sent to me for a reason and they’re important lessons that I need to learn from them and that there are parts of me that are important for teaching them to become who they need to be. I love how unique they each are I have started doing mind body soul time with each of them. I attempt to do it daily and it is time that is individually set aside for each one of them with me alone. His time that I devote and focus on them doing whatever they want for at least 10 minutes daily. They each love this time. It is a special time. I have realized how easy it is to let distractions creep into my time with them and I want them to know that they are significant and important that what they had to say and the thing that things that they like to do are of value to me.
Mason is at an age right now where he just want to pick them up and squeeze them and kiss them. He has quite the personality and is a joy to be around and to watch play and interact. Jonas continues to be tender and thoughtful he makes you feel loved it is just a gift that he has. And Porter loves to learn. He soaks up the stories of the Scriptures it has actually started having the desire to cook or bake.
It is helpful to have David as my partner as we raise them. I can watch how he handle situations and how he interacts with the boys and use his gifts and his example to help me to change and become better. I can see other boys respond to him and recognize ways that I can change.
Mason is at an age right now where he just want to pick them up and squeeze them and kiss them. He has quite the personality and is a joy to be around and to watch play and interact. Jonas continues to be tender and thoughtful he makes you feel loved it is just a gift that he has. And Porter loves to learn. He soaks up the stories of the Scriptures it has actually started having the desire to cook or bake.
It is helpful to have David as my partner as we raise them. I can watch how he handle situations and how he interacts with the boys and use his gifts and his example to help me to change and become better. I can see other boys respond to him and recognize ways that I can change.
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